My hands are searching for you
My arms are outstretched towards you
I feel you on my fingertips
My tongue dances behind my lips for you

This fire rising through my being
Burning I'm not used to seeing you

I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing

My hands float up above me
And you whisper you love me
And I begin to fade
Into our secret place

The music makes me sway
The angels singing say we are alone with you
I am alone and they are too with you

I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing

And so I cry
The light is white
And I see you

I'm alive, I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing

Take my hand
I give it to you
Now you owe me
All I am
You said you would never leave me
I believe you
I believe

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healed

Surviving On Your Love

Every breath I take, every sunrise, every giggle, and every tear are just a wee fraction of the endless reminders of how much You love me. I am too blessed.

I just want you around
I just want you around
I just want you around
I just want you around

Thought that I had lost you
I can hardly make a sound
When I thought I couldn't hold you
Knew the world had let me down
Should have took the time and told you
You keep my feet on the ground
I hope that you can hear me
Cause I know it's not profound

I just want you around
I just need you around
I just want you around
I just need you around

When I thought I was without you
I got used to being down
It was my fault I used to doubt you
But that ain't me next time around
Please believe me when I tell you
Cause all my words are bound
This is my cross now let me bear it
I was lost but now I'm found, found, found

I just want you around
I just need you around
I just want you around
I just need you around

Took this love for granted
Kept my feelings underground
Should have watered what I planted
Should have known what I have found
I'm not used to being lonely
I don't like the way it sounds
You're the only one I know, yeah
Who don't turn my upside-down

I just want you around
I just need you around
I just want you around
I just need you around
Yeah, I want you around
I just need you around

Sometimes you have to lose a part of yourself to find your whole self.

The Man Of My Dreams

SHITTTTT

I just found out it was too late for the volunteer thing at the fucking hospital. Motherfucker. I guess it wasn't meant to be. Well, I guess I'm just gonna spend my summer getting fat and stalking myspace profiles. YAY!

'09!

Summer's fucking here. IDK what I'm gonna do. Pero I know I wanna keep myself busy. I need to find a damn job. I hope I can still volunteer at New York-Presbyterian.

I just have one more fucking exam. I can't wait. I hope I don't see any of the faggots from my school this summer.

Phuket, I just remembered that I have to take 2 more driving lessons from my nightmare of a driving instructor. Her voice is so fucking annoying. ¡MAS PUTO!

DAMN NIGGA...

I AM SO FUCKING HAPPY!

<3

I JUST CHECKED MY WATCH AND IT IS...

SKINNY TIME!!!!

Prayer of Saint Francis

Lord, make me an instrument of your peace,
Where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury, pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light;
where there is sadness, joy;

O Divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console;
to be understood as to understand;
to be loved as to love.
For it is in giving that we receive;
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned;
and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life.

Because...

of YOU, I'm on some real 'fuck a bitch' shit.